When i first came to SMKAM 2 , it like starting new life . I start my school years with just a few friends . How beautiful is Allah plan , i start my years and now i am with the same persons . 

It just a life, I'm losing people . I'm going through my maturing process . It test my patience how i became when people leaving . When no people with you . When you had to stand through your pain . 

I wanna tell my story when i start losing people . It just a very long story started and i dont know where to start . 

♥♥♥

In September 2014 , if i'm not remember , it was started . My kind of personality is , aku lagi suka kawan dengan lelaki dari perempuan . Orang lain mungkin tak lah . Tapi aku jenis yang macam tu, lagi senang nak bergaul dengan lelaki , yes we got lines that we can't crossed. 

Some people says to me. 

- Kenapa kawan dengan lelaki , lelaki tak boleh peluk peluk ?

- Kenapa kawan dengan lelaki korang tak boleh pegang tangan ? 

- Dah tak ada ke kawan perempuan yang nak kawan ?

Yes i admit , kebanyakkan kawan perempuan ni , susah . Susah nak jaga hati dia . Penat , dah lah aku ni jenis yang tak reti jaga hati orang . I don't know how to give attention on how people's feels I'm sorry . Aku jenis yang suka buat apa yang aku suka . Then lastly when it was too lated, i will think about my mistakes. But yeah , when it wss too late , and i cannot turn everything on back to normal . I got fear on how to make friends with girls again . 

It was my mistakes why people leave . I am not so good like anyone . I'm just a people . Which you will never can accept me the way i am . I love to laugh and i love to make people laugh on my stupid jokes . With my jokes , there's no one will know how i feels . So everyone could see me happy . 

I don't know how to start again , when you ask me to start again . For me , when you say its over and i'm done . It's over . I'm sorry , i will never forget the lines "Ini last kita tau?Bye" It just a very exclusive experienced i got with the three of you . How many times i said sorry to the three of you , it's not gonna be the same . 

I got less than 5 close friends and Allah, please make it lasts . Please take care of them wherever they go. With who ever they was , please dont make them forget me . 

Love, Hazirah